Wasted Time

The time that I’ve wasted is my biggest regret,

Spent in these places I will never forget.

Just sitting and thinking about the things I’ve done,

The crying, the laughing, the hurt and the  fun.

 

Now it’s just me and my hard-driven guilt

Behind a wall of emptiness I allowed to be built.

I’m trapped in my body, just wanting to run

Back to my youth with its laughter and fun.

 

But the chase is over and there’s no place to hide.

Everything is gone, including my pride.

With reality suddenly night in my face

I’m scared, alone and stuck in this place.

 

Now memories of the past flash through my head

And the pain is obvious by the tears that I shed.

I ask myself why and where I went wrong.

I guess I was weak I should have been strong.

 

Living for the drugs and wings I had grown,

My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown.

As I look at my past it’s so easy to see

The fear that I had, afraid to be me.

 

I’d pretend to be rugged, so fast and so cool

When actually lost like a blinded old fool.

I’m getting to old for the tiresome game.

Of acting real hard with no sense of shame.

 

It’s time that I change and get on with my life,

Fulfilling my dreams for a family wife.

What my future will hold, I really don’t know

But the years I’ve wasted are starting to show.

 

I just live for the day when I”ll get  new start

And the dreams  still hold deep in my heart.

I  hope I can make it, I at least have to try

Because I’m heading toward, and I don’t want to die.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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